Joyous Victor

I don't want to go to school?

2009-06-16T11:07:00.002+08:00

school resumes 29.06.09. I can't wait. 'sarcasm'
Come on.. where did the holidays go?? It's not enough.. It just isn't!!
And with the hectic schedule I see coming, I just pray that I'd make it
through. I mean first yr med school was okay. It was time consuming, but it was okay.
2nd year.. I don't know.
roar.

Caleb, this is for u

2009-05-15T16:03:00.004+08:00

So I've always wanted to be a writer, till I realised I can't put my thoughts and emotions in words without them sounding contrite. You read the works of the greatest authors and u're just in awe. Man.

well, anyways, exams are over!!! haven't had so much free time in a long long long long long time!!
it feels great! It feels great to do nothing.

08.01.09 entry 1

2009-01-08T10:13:00.003+08:00

Psalm 125:1 Those who trust in the Lord are as secure as Mount Zion; they will not be defeated but will endure forever.

Trust. Reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety of a person or a thing; confidence.
Trusting is hard. But I learnt something today about trusting God.
Life with God is not immunity from difficulties, but PEACE in difficulties. God's guidance is often by shut doors though. Even though they open too.

Garh, God. WHY?!!!! grumble grumble grumble.
Oh and God please make McD's sundae coneys in heaven!! They're really good.
I don't want to make the decision that I know I have to make soon, and I have a hunch
I know what the decision should be. But God, why..... Why take something good
away from me..

hello 2009

2009-01-07T15:27:00.002+08:00

So 2009 is here!

a new year, new resolutions, new hopes, recharged, semi-healed,
replenished, renewed and ready for a new battle.
The problem with that is-new year, same problems. with no seemingly new
solutions peaking on. And maybe for many of us, the battles are resolved,
but for many of us, the old ones still remain.
MY only hope. God. To trust God and let him win the battles for me.
God please please give me faith! and strength and love.

You know what I feel like right now. I feel like a butterfly in a cocoon, struggling
to be free. Trying to find who am I, what God's purpose in my life is, what
I can do, but at the same time still dependent.
But hey, getting there.

On another note. I passed my exams!!! praise God. I really don't think I could
have done it withour Him. Really. a sturdy companion always there for me.
and heck for all of us if we let Him in. :)

So the absence of posts is because of exams, and alot of stuff that I had
to get done. yea

Well cheers.
My friend once told me, eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow we diet!!
:)
Have a great year bloggers.

september

2008-09-03T12:53:00.003+08:00

Gosh it's september already! Time doesn't fly.. It ROCKETS!!!
First week of orientation went by. I would say to a certain extend it is
exhausting but hey it really works ur butt and thigh muscles so no complains.
:)
OUr orientation lasts 2 weeks. And I think it's a bit draggy. ONe week's worth of
orientation frankly should be suffiicient.
MOre or less just finished my assignment. So I'm free the rest of the day.
good feeling!!!! I'm such a bad blogger. And I've been meaning to change the layout
and the skin of the blog But I am yet to find a perfect one and as my editing
and computing skills are HIGHLY limited. It's frustrating. I can imagine it in my head
but Idon't know how to execute the plan. Pfft.. technology.

Word for the day: Baroparesis- temporary/reversible paralysis of the facial nerve due to excessive pressure in the middle ear when going up in a plane or scuba diving.

P.s: I get that alot. Baroparesis. esp in the planes. It's torture....

21.08.08

2008-08-21T22:56:00.004+08:00

I spend half the time on my blog wondering what to blog about and then just give up trying to blog and go over to Smith's blog to leave a comment. I mean other than serious bloggers who are into politics and injustice and really give insight to things going on in our lives, how do the other half who blog about their daily lives and well sometimes nothing very factual have so much to say?!
I think I should take up journalism as my elective or something. Can one do that? Like medicine as a major, journalism as the elective?
AS for right now, I'm just trying to read and comprehend bourne trilogy by Robert Ludlum. There's just wayyyy to many characters going on.

Ambrose Redmoon

2008-08-16T00:21:00.003+08:00

Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. ~Ambrose Redmoon
Courage. Fear. In the mess of humanity as we know it, courage keeps us going. Courage. Faith. Hope. Love.
Courage is reckoned the greatest of all virtues; because, unless a man has that virtue, he has no security for preserving any other. ~Samuel Johnson

So in chaos that we live in, that the courageous people who strive to do what is right, to fight for what they believe in gives a glimmer of hope. Hope that the barrier of limits can be breached. Barrier of fear.
I'm glad God made us with courage.

People are made of flesh and blood and a miracle fibre called courage. Mignon McLaughlin,

science vs God

2008-08-15T23:51:00.005+08:00

'Let me explain the problem science has with Jesus Christ.' The atheist professor of philosophy pauses before his class and then asks one of his new students to stand.

'You're a Christian, aren't you, son?

''Yes sir,' the student says.

'So you believe in God?''Absolutely.''Is God good?''

Sure! God's good.

''Is God all-powerful? Can God do anything?

''Yes.''

Are you good or evil?

''The Bible says I'm evil.'

The professor grins knowingly. 'Aha! The Bible!' He considers for a moment.'Here's one for you. Let's say there's a sick person over here and you can cure him. You can do it. Would you help him. Would you try?

''Yes sir, I would.

''So you're good...!''

I wouldn't say that.

''But why not say that? You'd help a sick and maimed person if you could. Most of us would if we could. But God doesn't.'

The student does not answer, so the professor continues. 'He doesn't, does he?My brother was a Christian who died of cancer, even though he prayed to Jesus to heal him. How is this Jesus good? Hmmm? Can you answer that one?

'The student remains silent.

'No, you can't, can you?' the professor says. He takes a sip of water from a glass on his desk to give the student time to relax.

'Let's start again, young fella Is God good?''Er...yes,' the student says.

'Is Satan good?'

The student doesn't hesitate on this one. 'No.'

'Then where does Satan come from?

'The student : 'From...God...'

'That's right. God made Satan, didn't he? Tell me, son. Is there evil in this world?'

'Yes, sir.''Evil's everywhere, isn't it?

And God did make everything, correct?'

'Yes.'

'So who created evil?' The professor continued, 'If God created everything, then God created evil, since evil exists, and according to the principle thatour works define who we are, then God is evil.'Without allowing the student to answer, the professor continues: 'Is there sickness, Immorality, Hatred, Ugliness, All these terrible things, do they exist in this world?'

The student: 'Yes.'

'So who created them?'

The student does not answer again, so the professor repeats his question.

'Who created them?

There is still no answer. Suddenly the lecturer breaks away to pace in front of the classroom. The class is mesmerized.

'Tell me,' he continues onto another student. 'Do you believe in Jesus Christ, son?'

The student's voice is confident: 'Yes, professor, I do.'

The old man stops pacing. 'Science says you have five senses you use to identify and observe the world around you. Have you ever seen Jesus?''No sir. I've never seen Him''Then tell us if you've ever heard your Jesus?'

'No, sir, I have not.'

'Have you ever actually felt your Jesus, tasted your Jesus or smelt your Jesus?Have you ever had any sensory perception of Jesus Christ, or God for that matter?'

'No, sir, I'm afraid I haven't.'

'Yet you still believe in him?'

'Yes.'

'According to the rules of empirical, testable, demonstrable protocol, science says your God doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?'

'Nothing,' the student replies. 'I only have my faith.'

'Yes, faith,' the professor repeats. 'And that is the problem science has with God. There is no evidence, only faith.'

The student stands quietly for a moment, before asking a question of his own.'Professor, is there such thing as heat?'

'Yes,' the professor replies. 'There's heat.'

'And is there such a thing as cold?'

'Yes, son, there's cold too.''No sir, there isn't.'The professor turns to face the student, obviously interested. The room suddenly becomes very quiet.

The student begins to explain.'You can have lots of heat, even more heat, super-heat, mega-heat, unlimited heat, white heat, a little heat or no heat, but we don't have anything called'cold'. We can hit up to 458 degrees below zero, which is no heat, but we can't go any further after that. There is no such thing as cold; otherwise wewould be able to go colder than the lowest -458 degrees. Every body or object is susceptible to study when it has or transmits energy, and heat is what makes a body or matter have or transmit energy. Absolutezero (-458 F) is the total absence of heat. You see, sir, cold is only a word we use to describe theabsence of heat. We cannot measure cold. Heat we can measure in thermal units because heat is energy. Cold is not the opposite of heat, sir, just the absence of it.'

Silence across the room. A pen drops somewhere in the classroom, sounding like a hammer.

'What about darkness, professor. Is there such a thing as darkness?'

'Yes,' the professor replies without hesitation. 'What is night if it isn't darkness?'

'You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is not something; it is the absence of something. You can have low light, normal light, bright light, flashing light, but if you have no light constantly you have nothing and it's called darkness, isn't it? That's the meaning we use to define the word. In reality, darkness isn't. If it were, you would be able to make darkness darker,wouldn't you?'

The professor begins to smile at the student in front of him. This will be a good semester. 'So what point are you making, young man?'

'Yes, professor. My point is, your philosophical premise is flawed to start with, and so your conclusion must also be flawed.'

The professor's face cannot hide his surprise this time. 'Flawed? Can you explain how?'

'You are working on the premise of duality,' the student explains. 'You argue that there is life and then there's death; a good God and a bad God.You are viewing the concept of God as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, science can't even explain a thought. It uses electricity and magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view death as the opposite of life is to be ignorant of the fact that death cannot exist as a substantive thing. Death is not the opposite of life, just the absence ofit.''Now tell me, professor. Do you teach your students that they evolved from a monkey?'

'If you are referring to the natural evolutionary process, young man, yes, of course I do'

'Have you ever observed evolution with your own eyes, sir?'The professor begins to shake his head, still smiling, as he realizes where the argument is going. A very good semester, indeed.

'Since no one has ever observed the process of evolution at work and cannot even prove that this process is an on-going endeavor, are you not teaching your opinion, sir? Are you now not a scientist, but a preacher?'

The class is in uproar. The student remains silent until the commotion has subsided.

'To continue the point you were making earlier to the other student, let me give you an example of what I mean.'The student looks around the room.

'Is there anyone in the class who has ever seen the professor's brain?' The class breaks out into laughter.

'Is there anyone here who has ever heard the professor's brain, felt the professor's brain, touched or smelled the professor's brain? No one appears to have done so. So, according to the established rules of empirical, stable, demonstrable protocol, science says that you have no brain, with all due respect, sir. So if science says you have no brain, how can we trust your lectures, sir?'

Now the room is silent. The professor just stares at the student, his face unreadable. Finally, after what seems an eternity, the old man answers. 'I guess? you'll have to take them on faith.'

'Now, you accept that there is faith, and, in fact, faith exists with life,' the student continues. 'Now, sir, is there such a thing as evil?'

Now uncertain, the professor responds, 'Of course, there is. We see it everyday.It is in the daily example of man's inhumanity to man. It is in the multitude of crime and violence everywhere in the world. These manifestations arenothing else but evil.'

To this the student replied, 'Evil does not exist sir, or at least it does not exist unto itself. Evil is simply the absence of God. It is just like darkness and cold, a word that man has created to describe the absence of God.God did not create evil. Evil is the result of what happens when man does not have God's love present in his heart. It's like the cold that comes whenthere is no heat or the darkness that comes when there is no light.'

The professor sat down....

who is jo?

2008-08-04T10:47:00.003+08:00

Jo. Josef. Smith. a John. Brother, cousin, eternal friend, a blessing.
It's pity I only got to know you better after youth camp 2007. Before that you just scared the wits out of me. It's been so amazing getting to know you and you've been such a blessing in so many ways. Thank you.
Malaysia will definitely be quieter not to mention a little safer ( I say this for all the other road users around ) :P
Keep in touch and hope to see u online soon when your brother gets back. :)
I passed caleb ur pay from my elephant which I forgot to give u.. and he has passed it to johan..
not much though about 6o ringgit??lols.
Haven't finished reading bourne trilogy but for ur sake. I'll finish it!! :)
I'll mail it back to you when I'm done!! :)

you do not kill cats

2008-07-29T21:00:00.004+08:00

If u injure a person or an animal. You help it. you do not run away.
you DO NOT. I repeat DO NOT leave it to die!!
if you couldn't save it, at least you tried.. at least you did something..
always ALWAYS do something about it.
Ignorance is NOT bliss. It never is. Who came up with such a crappy quote anyways?!

growing up

2008-07-28T21:44:00.003+08:00

I want to be with peter pan and live in never ever land.
Then nobody would grow up!
Because the price for growing up is too much.

sara.. miss u too. will call soon.

Light bulb moment

2008-07-26T16:01:00.003+08:00

MY goodness... I just realised my computer actually has a brain! Like it's sooo smart.
A huge tribute to the inventors behind all the programs and technology.
sometimes it can be a pain though, like they say
technology-can't live with it can't live without it.

(as dedicated to my dell laptop. Good job!)
No I'm not psycho. just excited. So caleb if you're reading this, don't analyse me!

Chamel who?

2008-07-23T18:42:00.004+08:00

Dear Chameleon,

A chameleon is of course a good thing. God made it. everything God made is good-except cockroaches of course :)
But then usually you only notice the chameleon when it's not blending. When it's green on a brown surface or when it's brown on a blue. That's when I like them, when they're visible.

I think that a chameleon hides because it's afraid. Fear of being eaten, of being noticed, of being hunted, fear of being alone. You are made exactly the way you are. Perfect as God planned.
So why hide? I'm guessing it's because you're afraid. But you know you shouldn't be. IF you're always changing, how can be people get close to you? And if you don't let people close to you, you'll feel alone even though you aren't.

But because of who we are and what we have. We will always be the shining green chameleon. Green on brown. We will always be different. We should always be different. And Because we live in Him, we have nothing to fear. And if we have no fears, we don't have to hide. But most importantly, being a chameleon is like lying to yourself because you loose your identity when you keep swtiching colours. And you can lie to us, you can lie to you but you can't lie to God. And if you keep trying to be something other than you, you can't grow.

I like this verse, from Isaiah 25:1
O Lord, I will honour and praise your name, for you are my God...

out.

come now is the time to worship
come now is the time to give your heart
come just as you are to worship
come just as you are before your God.

shutters

2008-07-20T16:10:00.002+08:00

Can't wait to start uni.. can't wait.
so excited. Hopefully it would be better than form 6.
Yea... pretty sure it would be. It BETTER be. Cause I'll be there
for 5 whole years!
Nothing much to say now. Brain's empty.. How am I going to start uni?!!!
I'm not making much sense today. so I'll just stop now.

religion 202

2008-07-16T21:35:00.003+08:00

This is a reply to a post I read regarding religion.

Does God exist? Yes.
Necessity/relelvance of religion? necessary, relevant.

Most common theory, all paths lead to God. but then again, there are sooo many gods. so which is which right?

Well well. Haha.. let's say, you want to get to destination A from any other place. Hence many paths. But from each starting point there is only one shortest route. likewise with religion, may paths to God-but one fastest route while the rest are longer paths and then you might get lost in the other routes.

People can't find God because they're more absorbed in life, in the things around them. If you believe that there is a supreme being that created this world. then you are a creation from God. IF you are not along this line then you are really brave.
=)

And money... pfft what does God have to do with money anyways? We made money. it's just paper anyway. God's not looking for money. Why the heck does he need it? lols

music

2008-07-15T22:35:00.001+08:00

music is a higher revelation than all wisdom and philosophy.

How true. Beethoven knew his stuff, Like really really really knew his stuff.

Bloggeria

2008-07-15T16:52:00.002+08:00

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-noun

a kingdom in cyberspace, including microsoft and mozilla firefox, ∞ sq m. ( ∞ sq.km ).
capital: Blogspot

Bloggerian

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happy tuesdays

2008-07-15T16:35:00.001+08:00

today is tuesday. Just like any other tuesdays. Except that it's gloomier.
Obviously the sun decided that it's time to take a vacation or the clouds are being paid
overtime. Aha.
Anyways great day for a jog..
Watched Hancock yesterday. pretty cool show. If you haven't catched it go watch it!!! :)
Have a happy tuesday y'all.

p.s : to all the policemen out there... good job!! really. =)

too much of a green thing

2008-07-12T21:35:00.001+08:00

Got to salute all you vegetarians out there.
Just came back from some organic vegetarian shop for dinner just cause it was new
and man... It was one of the hardest meal to chow down.
EVER.. came back and guzzled chocolate and mentos just to get the alfafa test out of my mouth..
and my former piano teacher eats alfafa and peanut butter!!!!
so whacked I know.
Until then here's a vege joke :
Why is a tomato red???

answer. cause it saw the salad DRESSING

12.07.08

2008-07-12T13:10:00.001+08:00

so. Day 1 of my blogging experience. Would never have happened if it wasn't for my sister. Never knew she was so good with all this IT stuff. So to do her credit she's the only person on my link so far. SO go visit her site alrights?? :)

P.s: Well that's one less person who doesn't have a blog. Looks like you're the only one now, z. :)